Fireworks and Family

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Late post today! I was so worn out that I fell asleep at 6pm.

I get tired very quickly in this southern fried heat. Today was a great day!
I woke up at 4am this morning after falling asleep at 8 last night (sleep hours are finally starting to get a little normal). We were supposed to go swimming this afternoon, but my toddler decided to nap instead. We don’t wake sleeping babies around here, unless it’s an emergency, so swimming tomorrow! The great news is, I woke up and the rest day had done its job, I felt physically rejuvenated and ready to start off week 2 with a bang. I needed to go grocery shopping for this week’s meals so, I went out, and even took the kiddo with me! This was my second week of doing my own grocery shopping and it was awesome, but I’m noticing I spend way more money if I go in versus having it delivered. I probably bought more fruit than I needed for us this week but, SO EXCITED about fruit!!
I parked farther out on the parking lot and walked as much as I could until I needed assistance. My steps today were the highest ever since starting this journey! Successsss! After my nap, I got up and took the kiddo to see fireworks, and even stood to watch them (had to support myself on the car, but still a win for me!). We stopped on the way home and got sparklers, her first time getting to play with them, and we had a blast.
My little one motivates me so much. All I could think was, "next year, I’m going to be strong enough to walk her all over this park for the festival." I must surpass myself every day, in any way, so that I can reach the best me.



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