Mastering the Art of Spontaneity

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Rolling hills, winding roads, swaying trees and fresh air.
I woke up far too early, but I still smiled. Waking up early feels better than waking up late. I did 50 crunches before I got out of bed. 50! 5 weeks ago, I couldn’t do 5. An accomplishment before taking my first step of the day. What a way to begin a day that turned into an adventure.
I’m mastering the art of spontaneity. Deciding to live has opened my eyes to the many opportunities I’ve missed over the last few years. And, really, even the past decade—fear, pain and being unreasonably cautious kept me from seeing and doing all I could have. But today, on a whim, I decided we would pack up and go to the mountains. I haven’t been since April 2020 because of the pain of the drive and the difficulty of getting into the cabin because of the rocky steps and path. But screw it, I’m back to life so pain be damned, I was making the trip.
The drive was.. horrible. Halfway up, I couldn’t feel my leg anymore and I was having regrets. I started to just turn around and go home but instead, I stopped, got out for a short walk and got back to it. The closer we got to the cabin, the more the regret vanished. The last 45 minutes of the drive in is so beautiful. Green as far as the eye can see. Evergreens, massive oaks, dogwoods and birches line the roads, with hills like grass covered waves rolling along, dotted by the occasional wooden cottage or quilt-adorned barn.
The twisting and curving single lane dirt path up to the cabin woke my snoring husband. I made it. This beautiful home my family has in the mountains that I can use any time I want, and I hadn’t visited in more than two years, I finally made it back. The walk in was accentuated by my groans and hisses as my body unfolded and creaked open.
The view is beautiful. It’s inspiring and refreshing. I’m glad I made the trip (even if I’m already dreading the drive home). I have absorbed it all and I’m ready to take a nature walk tomorrow as a family. Something we have never done since my daughter was born.
I am so full of life. I want to make the most of life, start a career, travel, and make memories. I haven’t been this lively and motivated since college. And it feels amazing.
And LOOK AT THIS!! I. Have. Definition. I noticed today this line on my stomach. I don’t know if it’s just a gap forming in the fat or if my abs are actually becoming defined. Either way! I haven’t had any definition in my stomach, ever, and this made me so freaking excited. I just kept poking it all night.
There’s always a way. It may be easy, it may be hard, it may be nearly impossible—but there is always a way. Find it, take it, and cherish the journey.





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