The Rematch

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The young challenger eyed the alpha female from the shadows, brows knit in determination and focus. She assessed her rival and dug her heels in, waiting for the most opportune moment to pounce. She watched the elder female move gracefully through the water, carefree and smiling, unaware of the danger lurking. The newcomer sensed the moment to act was nigh; she inched forward, eyes on her prize and— “Can I help you?” she was startled out of her hunt by the sound of the community pool lifeguard. “Oh. No, I’m just here for water fitness. Thanks.”
Ok, so, I got my rematch. Yesterday morning, I woke up, determined to show that drill sergeant Grandma what I was made of. She may have beaten me Friday, but I had come prepared. I conditioned myself, mentally and physically for that moment. I hopped in the pool, started stretching to limber up and smiled politely at her, with maybe just a hint of “today is my day” in my eyes.
And I did it. I got through that workout and worked every bit as hard as she did. The other ladies in the pool complimented my stamina and how I looked like I was having such a good time. And man, was I. I was so incredibly proud of myself for keeping up and not feeling like death was approaching at the end. Take that, grandma!
I came home and took some comparison pictures. I can’t show but one of them because it’s a lot of bare skin in the others, but the difference is AMAZING. My back is smoothing out, my sides are cinching, and OMG, my belly button and boobs are getting higher. So damn exciting! And such a motivation. I weighed too, down 14 pounds since starting E2M and down 35 total.
I was so tired last night. I love that the workouts are helping me get into a normal routine with sleep. I passed out at 7pm while reading to my kiddo, so that’s why you didn’t get a post yesterday. 7 is a little early so I may add a snack into the last part of my eating window to see if that helps me stay awake a little longer.
Since I’m posting this afternoon, I won’t make a new one tonight. I had a doctor's appointment this morning, so I wasn’t able to go to my water class but planning to make up for it later today!
I’ll leave you with this today: never stop aiming higher. You may feel overwhelmed by that thought, but don’t. Life is a journey, and the destination is the same for us all. But making every day better, and striving to surpass yourself somehow, some way, every damn day decides how your journey will feel. You only get one opportunity to take this walk through life, make sure it is as beautiful, as fun, and as impactful as you can make it. When you arrive at your destination, you’ll be able to look back and smile at what you made of it.



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