New Bra Size!

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Went down a size on my sports bra today! Thats the first picture. The second picture is the three stages of #biceptakeover this morning. 

This morning was a challenge. For those who caught my video this morning, I shared that today was the first day I woke up with back pain in almost a week. I am grateful that I can say I made it to the 6th day of this week without back pain. That’s amazing. But today I woke up thinking my back was going to call for a rest day today instead of tomorrow. But as I find happening so often now, pain motivates me even more. I knew the gym wasn’t happening, so I plopped down to check in with the live with Jeff. 

First thing I heard was “you can sit for this one so there’s no excuses.” Well, ok Coach, why you spying on me? Got my weights out and started doing bicep takeover. Y’all. 7 minutes in, I was broken. Like, could not lift my arms again. Maybe next round, ha! But I gave it what I had. Then I stuck around to do the morning Zumba. I had to do a significant part of it sitting and fighting my total lack of rhythm, but I had a blast. Looking forward to doing that again!

We are waiting for our treat meal, Thai, my favorite! Made myself nauseated drinking a bunch of water at once trying to catch up on my ounces today. Hopefully that passes soon. My attempt at tolerating room temp water is very hit or miss. Sometimes it doesn’t bother me at all and other times it turns my stomach. Still a work in progress. 

I miss the pool on the weekends, so I think next week, I’m just going to start driving to the gym with a pool every day. One thing I’ve noticed the last few days is that moving has become instinct to me again. I just get up and go without a thought now. I said it in the beginning, but I had a hard time believing myself; “Just keep moving, and one day moving will be easy” is what I would tell myself. And I was right. Moving is becoming easy. The easier it gets for me to get around, the more I can challenge myself and I am so ready for that. 

Hope y’all are having a great weekend so far!





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