Return of the Two Piece

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Sorry for not getting a real post in yesterday. When I finally recovered from my treat meal, I was going to post but then I had to go pick up my little brother from football and take him home. When I got back, it was date night for hubby and I and all I’m going to say is I found out about several not safe for work NSVs last night. E2M out here improving marriages too, ha!
I woke up pretty sluggish this morning, side effect of the carbs and sugar from my treat meal, probably. But like every morning, I just switch on the auto pilot, get ready and out the door by 5. I forgot to put my swimsuit in the dryer before bed so the two piece made a return. And guess what? It fits! I even had to switch the straps back to the racer back way because they were falling off my shoulders. I felt so damn good about myself that I didn’t even wear a coverup to walk into the gym. My ass went in there with my midriff showing, confident and giddy. I did my workout before the T/Th ladies showed up. They hadn’t seen my hair yet and several of them complimented me and made me spin around in the pool for them. That made me feel even more confident today.
Our substitute instructor for T/Th has a KILLER arm routine. Even as much as I can do now, these little “baby pumps” (as she calls them) make my arms and shoulders burn. But it feels so good afterward. I got out of the water a few minutes early so I wouldn’t have to wait for a shower to open up, washed up and dressed and headed home. My appetite has been non-existent today, but I managed to eat a single egg for my second meal. My third meal, I managed two eggs but felt like I was going to gag. Whyyyy I don’t know. Maybe I’ve just eaten so many eggs that my body just doesn’t want anymore. Hopefully tomorrow I will have a better appetite!
The rest of the afternoon has been mostly lazy. It’s a whole mood at my house today, the husband and kiddo are feeling it too. I’ll be spending my evening coloring and working on my inspiration wall while mentally preparing for my transformation photo shoot tomorrow morning. I’m excited but nervous!
Body positivity has been heavy on my mind today, so I just wanted to share this thought with you before I go. If you can’t learn to be confident and comfortable in the skin you’re in, you’ll be chasing perfection your whole life, and you’ll never reach it because no BODY is perfect. Yes, achieving a certain appearance can -boost- your confidence, but it isn’t going to -create- it. If you’re not confident as you are, I encourage you to work on it. Wear the sleeveless shirts, go out in your shorts, wear that cute top you love but think you don’t have the body for. Create your confidence.
Pictures: I swear I think you can see my bicep starting to show through the blubber! Even if I weren’t proud of all of my other accomplishments this round, I’m very proud of my arm strength I’ve gained. I started wearing wrist braces today because my carpal tunnel pain and numbness has been horrible the last few weeks, to the point of not being able to close my fist by bedtime. Hoping the braces will help! I need surgery but I want to wait as long as I can so I’m in better shape for anesthesia and for modifying workouts without my hands. Also, since I’m not revealing my hair until tomorrow, enjoy these expertly edited hair styles.




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