Mom Solo

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It’s late and I’m tired. I never even stopped to take a picture today! (I’m including a comparison one that I forgot to post last week.) Today was my husband’s first day at his new job, and my first day home with my toddler alone all day. No way I would have been able to survive this 8 weeks ago. We made it through and even had fun and exercised together! But my gosh, she is a firecracker. I have a long way to go in this journey before I can keep up with her energy.
I received an extremely thoughtful gift today. Between that at the post last night of an NG with one of my post quotes on her fridge, my spirit and will power are through the roof. I also had a scale victory this morning. I am 2 pounds shy of 50lbs lost. It was a damn good day. I wish I wasn’t so worn out that I could write more about it but I’m about to fall asleep, but I’m going to power through to catch Jeff’s live.
Tomorrow, I plan to sort through all of my clothing and put a post up in the E2M Clothing Exchange for anyone who may be starting out at the size I did. After that, Star Bumbanac and I will be making a post to look for our NGs to group up with this round. I hope y’all are ready for the heat because I’m ready to light fires.
Rest well, my friends! Enjoy your weekends and slap away those temptations like you’re swatting at the mosquitos. There will come a day when your mind and body are ready for wiggle room, but it ain’t right now! Stay strong so you can reach your goals first.



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