Wordfulness

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Words are sharp. Sharper than the finest of weapons. Capable of piercing something stronger than flesh, or bone or armor.
Words can puncture the soul. They cut through mental barriers and slice heartstrings. Years of despair can be trimmed away, as can years of progress.
When you speak, or write, you wield a weapon more powerful than the greatest sword ever forged. Be careful what scars you leave. When you listen, or read, guard yourself against those who would wield theirs for harm. Be careful what you allow to scar you.
I have dedicated my words to be a positive force and don’t and won’t regret it. I hope that it inspired others to do the same. I am worthy, I am enough, and so are you.
I will be spending the next few days in quiet reflection, self-examination and preparation. Push forward, push up, push out and push back. You deserve it.



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