Muscles and Brows

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The day is about to get really busy so I’m going to squeeze in a quick post.
I chose to stay up late with my husband last night because I’ve missed him this week on his new 12-hour work schedule. I went to bed at 1 and woke up at 5 like, “I asked for this.” While my eyes burned and joints bemoaned the lack of rest, I got up and went to the gym anyway. The first picture is just my quick snap then running away before someone sees me. Know what I see in this picture? My traps! They’re getting so much more visible and are hard enough that my straps no longer dig into them. And I may be crazy, but I swear my collar bone is trying to make a breakthrough. I can barely see it’s form but there’s the slightest of shadows and it makes me so happy!!
Great workout and I was able to stay longer to chat with Amanda. Showered and came home. I needed to pluck a few lady goatee hairs and decided to show a side by side of what I meant about my eyebrows yesterday. The left one never completely disappeared on the outside, but the right did and it’s back! Pictures from the second day of my first round and today. I am even able to shape them a little, but I don’t do much for fear of losing one again. But I know the return of that eyebrow means healthy changes are happening inside my body.
Anyway, rock it out today, y’all! Don’t let anyone or anything get in your way. Shove past it and put yourself to work. Cheers to muscles and eyebrows!




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