You Get What You Repeat

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Thought I would post while I waited for my groceries to come out.
Lying down for a nap has become a bane of roulette for me. Sometimes I land on a couple hours. Sometimes I hit the jackpot and wake up the next day. My “I just need to close my eyes for a bit” at 5:30 last night turned into a 11-hour nap. But I think it really did me some good. My pain level is so much improved this morning and the swelling where my skin infection (it’s in the soft tissue below the skin, not on the top) is almost gone. Yay for restorative rest! But not great missing medicine doses. Hopefully it’ll be alright.
While I haven’t been able to do much in the way of exercise, I have been consistent with food and water. I may have used one of this week’s cheat meals for saltines, but oh well. I have also kept myself waking up at 4-5 so I don’t lose that habit. I heard something the other day that stuck with me. “You get what you repeat.” I continue to repeat my good habits even while sick so that I will continue to “get” them. I sincerely hope that come Monday, I’ll be able to get back in the pool. My body and mind need my routine back. Do me a favor, when you’re doing your workout today, take an extra step or do an extra rep for me!
Bring on the NGs! I can’t wait for the opportunity to hopefully inspire more people. Happy sign ups day!
Ignore the rash around my mouth. Just Covid things, I guess. This has definitely been the strangest experience I’ve had with it, and definitely the most head scratching symptoms this time.



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