E2M is a Mission

I may feel better than I have in years, but I also feel like I’ve aged a few decades. This falling asleep at 6pm stuff needs to staaaaaahp. It does make sense though, because when I first started E2M, exercise made me so tired that I often fell asleep between 6 and 7 at night. I guess having been sick for several weeks then getting back to it was like a mini-reset on my body’s energy levels so I’ve ended up back to that early sleep schedule again. Hopefully it’ll level out before Disney because, listen here Jamie, fireworks aren’t until 9 and we ain’t missing them! I told myself so I better listen.

Another 11 hour sleep last night, only this time it was restorative like it should be. I woke up so refreshed and ready to go, even if I woke up later than normal. I rushed to get to the gym before the usual pool crowds would arrive. I’ve decided not to do my typical cardio in the pool anymore, but at home. It just takes more exertion than is sustainable for me to break a sweat in the pool—literally have to hurt myself to sweat in the water. So rather than keep trying to do that, I ordered a sauna suit and will be doing my cardio at home now. Home gym is being set up this weekend, thanks to my amazing Dad’s help, and I’m ready to work it y’all. I really think my lack of sweat is a big reason why I haven’t lost as much fat as I could/should at my size. But I started where I had to, in the water, so that I could get in a physical condition where it would be possible and less painful to work out on land. But! Still doing the bulk of my strength training in the water because of my back. Eventually I will transition out of the water for that as well, when my body is ready.

I watched the last two nights of lives from Jeff while I worked out. And last night’s was my favorite. And only because of the last 2 1/2 minutes of it. Here’s some new information about me for you guys. I am not a trusting person. Past trauma has taken every bit of that from me. I question anyone’s motives when they act selflessly. I don’t trust authority figures. E2M and this community have been my first experiences with people who are genuinely kind, and not just for their own motives. I’ve become more trusting of people here that I have never met than I am with people in my life I’ve known for many years. I love Jeff, and admire everything he does, but the end of last night’s live absolutely cemented for me that he is a trustworthy person. I have a lot of self-taught behavioral analysis knowledge that I’ve acquired over time from my desperation to weed out and avoid dishonest or manipulative people, and everything about Jeff’s body language and behaviors during that emotional speech was genuine and heart felt. If you didn’t watch it, go back, right now, and watch. This man actually cares about you, your health, and the quality of your life. Jeff Spoon, you’re the real deal, my man. Let anyone speak ill of you and I’ll sit on them until they cry for Uncle Jeffrey!

Alright, alright, long speech over. I have some exciting news to share, hopefully tomorrow since I’m writing so early today and haven’t seen the doctor yet but ooooooh I am excited!! Pic below is my arm progress for three months. It took a long time but I’m so proud of that growth (and all the loss around it—the swimsuit on the left is a 30W, the right is a 22W!). Forearms coming in strong and that bicep peeking. Yes!

Have a fantastic weekend, y’all. Stay strong, stay well, and get where you’re going by taking another step each day.