How Far I've Come

Today has been one of those days where I just needed to remind myself how far I’ve come. I’m trying to change a lot of habits in my life, not just food/exercise related. And it’s overwhelming. I have come to a place where I want to make every part of my life healthier, not just healthier but the best I can make it and trying to undo decades of bad habits is stressful. I’m trying to pace myself while also pushing myself and I’m struggling with the balance. I’ll figure it out in time, but I’m such an impatient person by default that just that in itself is frustrating. When I feel like “I have to fix everything, now,” I have to take time to reflect on the progress I’ve already made and how an imperfect journey has still given me so much of my life back. I don’t need to rush to perfect everything to still get to where I want to be.

I’m proud of myself for continuing to go to the gym every day to swim despite how freaking cold it is at 5am. I wear a sweatshirt over my swimsuit each morning but it’s still almost painful going out, and the thought of swimming when you’re shivering isn’t exactly appealing. But I have done it every day. And without headphones, which might be the best excuse I could have for staying home, ha! My kiddo got to my waterproof ones and I haven’t been able to find them. I just turn on my lives and listen anyway… rarely anyone there to complain about it except the occasional swimmer also minding their own business.

Hope you guys are having a great start to your holiday week. Be mindful in your choices and don’t let stress get the best of you.