Sick again...

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The last couple of days have been confusing, and a little scary. Family matters: prayers for my great grandfather who is 92 and fell due to severe dehydration and also has Covid now and my great uncle who is passing from this world would be sincerely appreciated. Now that we all have Covid, at least we are able to be around and support each other now even if we are a symphony of sneezes, coughs and sharts at the moment.
I have been sick since the 19th. My husband and grandmother tested positive for Covid on the 22nd. I was given an assumed positive and put on antivirals. I was never laid out sick like they were, just fatigued and fevered. I continued to test negative as recently as Saturday. I get fine over the weekend, just the occasional mild fever spike. My grandfather fell Sunday and I was planning to go spend some time him at the hospital yesterday. Well, I woke up Monday not feeling right. I finally had that “I have a cold” feeling that had mostly been missing for these two weeks. So, I took a test before going to see him and what do you know…after 13 negatives, this one was positive. Anyway, lots of dialogue with doctors and some tests to rule out severe Covid, and the general consensus is I actually didn’t have Covid before but some other virus and now I have Covid after living in a hot den of it with my whole family because I was under the impression, I had it so I wasn’t taking any precautions not to get it. It’s a mess. I’ve been sicker the last 24 hours than I was at any point in the two weeks prior. My butt is nearly immobile from exhaustion. I’m on Paxlovid, again, and it makes me feel even worse, but the professionals recommended I take it again since they are now treating this as though I wasn’t infected when I took it the first time. Like I said, confusing.
But I’m fighting the fog and the fatigue by staying up to hydrate well and taking short walks here and there. I missed a loooot of tags while I was knocked out most of the day yesterday, and I apologize if I didn’t find them all this morning. I intend to rest as long as my body asks for it and just continue walking occasionally. My resting heart rate is between 100-110 right now so I don’t want to stress myself by attempting anything at all strenuous until it’s lower. But I love seeing y’all do your thing so keep tagging me and I’ll keep up the best I can!
Be well! The radiologist who took my X-ray said that Covid, flu and RSV are all very, very prevalent right now and the hospitals and doctors' offices are looking reminiscent of pandemic era right now. Stay home if you’re unwell as best you can and keep your littles and elderly safe right now. No picture today because y’all don’t need to see this. Also, I know lots of tags are missing because Facebook is being uncooperative. Love to you all!


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