A Whole List of NSVs

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Some days, you just have to pull your unwashed hair back into your daughter’s LED Minnie bow and put on a smile. Thankfully, I have since managed to feel well enough to take a shower. 

I almost had a pity party today. 5th sickness in 8 weeks. Come on, man. But instead, I decided to dwell on the positives. These illnesses are because I started living again. Leaving the house, going to the gym, GOING TO DISNEY, all these amazing things I can now do that I couldn’t before. I should have made a full list, but I’m going to share some of the NSVs from these last two weeks. 

-being able to clean and vacuum my car myself
-up to 6 hours of driving without my back giving out
-carrying groceries in
-picking my daughter up and carrying her some
-walking on sand
-taking the stairs
-conquering my social anxiety
-wearing a bra every day, comfortably
-getting into my new shirts I bought for Disney
-7 days in Disney parks
-activity goals met every day
-having to move the car seat forward
-being able to wear a seat belt again
-tolerating heat better than ever
-finally getting to a gallon of water a day
-giving my family the vacation of a lifetime

Not even close to all of them, but some I can remember off the top of my head. So yeah, I’m sick again, but I’m still in better shape than I’ve been since college. I’m counting my blessings, and they are numerous. I may attempt to go to the gym first thing in the morning if I don’t cough all night again. I miss my routine, so so much. I also miss writing and sharing my days with you all so expect that to begin again soon! ♥️

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